Sunday, January 23, 2011

Not a Kid / Man Safe Post

The Communists have overstayed their welcome.

By that I mean I am on the period from hell.

I started having weird issues like spotting halfway through my period several months ago, but I chalked it up to variation within the normal bounds of.. normalness. But then this month at the halfway mark, instead of just spotting, I got my full period... and this is going on day 12 or 13. Seriously!? Unfair.

So, after much deliberation, talking with DH, and a doctor's trip (they were less than zero help), I decided to go off the pill. That was four or five days ago and I am really feeling the hormonal shift. Tonight I completely spazzed about 6th grade level homework for my microeconomics class. Graphing a chart in excel is apparently too much for me right now.

I've just been a mess. I want to kill things. I've been the less-than-endearing wife for the past hour or two, including the ever-awesome whiny-ness that comes with PMSing. Or, MSing, since it's during and not before. I don't know.

But seriously, I want to kill things. And I'm so worked up from this laymen (notice how that sounds like LAME if you say if fast... hmm) assignment that I don't even think I can go to bed. Maybe I need a bubble bath. I knew these first 3-4 weeks would be rough while my body learns to do what it's supposed to be doing, but I didn't expect to completely lose control like this without realizing what was wrong.

Also, did I mention that I've been on my period for 12 days? I know it'll stop in a few days, according to my little handy chart (and if it doesn't, to the doc I go, ugh), but I'm still really pissed about it.

I want ice cream.


In all seriousness, I really need to chill. Now that I realize it's stupid hormones, I need to use the ol' noggin to make myself calm the hell down. But it's hard. I feel like I'm being reasonable, but I know that my feelings are just lying to get attention, lol. So I am trying to suck it up so I can be pleasant (or at least tolerable) to be around. The good news is that at least I finished my homework so hopefully I can talk myself down from the hormonal rampage I was about to start.

Maybe I should start yoga, haha.

PS, I'm not really looking for medical advice, although if you are just dying to share, go ahead (minus the dying part), I just needed to vent about how much this sucks. I know every woman has had shitty periods and I am not special. Oh, and commiseration is always welcome. :)

PPS, And, my bread, which I formed and put in the pan umm... 6 hrs ago, still has not risen more than a cursory centimeter. Silly me, I used honey instead of sugar in sourdough--duh! Honey is antibacterial, what'd I think was gonna' happen? Poor li'l sourdough beasties, I'm surprised it's risen at all.

PPPS, "I am a leaf on the wind." If you don't get it, Google it.


  1. I think you made a good decision to go off the pill - After I went off it, it was like I was a new person! My "old" self came back, my mood swings practically disappeared, and my "drive" returned. Plus, it's probably a whole lot healthier for your body to not be pumping it with artificial crap everyday, at least that's what I think. If you're seeking to prevent pregnancy, you should look into the Fertility Awareness Method - it can be just as effective as the pill when done right.

    Sorry you had such a bad period though! That really sucks! For me, the great thing about pregnancy and breastfeeding is that Mean Aunt Flow hasn't visited me since September 2009 :-) but I used to have horrible periods, so I definitely feel for ya!

  2. Wow, I feel like you are inside my head. :)

    I have been reading about fertility awareness for a few weeks, debating with myself about whether or not I should really go off the pill, but after this period I can tell you I was done!

    I am have a book coming to the library about it and I have my basal thermometer as well. Until a few months pass and my periods return to normal, I'll just make sure we're using condoms all the time.

    I'm still not sure how I feel about the pill in general. I understand what it's for, I was on it for 2-3 years, but I don't understand if it's bad to add artificial hormones to the mix or not. Is there ever a time when it would more beneficial than harmful? ... I just still have so many questions about it.

  3. I totally get your confusion! I think there is a lot of misinformation out there concerning the pill and it isn't questioned as often as it probably should be. I know I struggled with deciding whether or not to go off it for over a yr before I took the plunge. The kicker for me was an early miscarriage, which I believe was caused by taking it. :-(

  4. Wow, that must have been hard. Yeah I think (no research to back this up, tho) that birth control can cause early miscarriages.

    My book came and I read it cover to cover in about 6 hours! It was packed so full of information I've never heard of in my entire life. I'm so glad I read it.

    If you haven't read it, I highly recommend you take a look at "Taking Charge of Your Fertility." It has explained in simple language the workings of the female body.

    It makes total sense. I loved it.